The Nothing…

I’ve discovered I’m an all or nothing girl. You may have known this about me, I don’t know, but I did not. I’ve recently come to this realization.

I’m not sure I really like it. If I had my druthers, I think I’d rather be a “pick and choose girl.” I’d rather be able to live in the comfort of the middle, in the ambiguity of oxymoron and in the ampatheatre of “open to interpretation” where responsibilities are few, truth is fluid and based on experience, and everything works in MY timing, the way I want it to work and everything working for me and my benefit.

Pshaw… I’m a selfish one aren’t I…

And it doesn’t ACTUALLY work for me. It makes me miserable. I’m a planner, I’m a dreamer, I’m goal oriented… when I try to live in the middle, not being all in or all out… that’s really where nothing lies… “All or nothing” is a misnomer… It should really be “All in or All out…”

Because the Nothing resides in the middle…